I'm a Junkie

Thank you all SO much for all the comments and support on my previous post. I love getting all the tips from you guys. I will definitely give them a go. I have tried calorie counting which really does help, but I find it difficult to do all the time because it is time consuming and a bit tricky so I usually give up. But I really should just try to do a loose calorie count. It keeps me in check, and I find myself editing what I planned to eat for that day a bit when I count up how much it is.

I really like the coffee idea too. I don't drink coffee but I love tea, so I will try having a tea just before I eat, that idea seems like such a no brainer, why didn't I think about that before?!

I have a food addiction, I am sure. That is what got me here in the first place. When I go to break my fast I actually start shaking as I prepare my meal because I am so anxious to eat it. I need to just calm down and take a moment, I think drinking the tea first could help with that.

My carb addiction is obvious. I have always eaten only carbs. I used to be MUCH worse though, eating only white foods, a co-worker even recently told me that when I started at the office, she actually told her family that a girl had begun working with her who only ate white food. I would have a sandwich with white bread, cream cheese and turkey breast, chips, cookies and a banana almost every day for lunch. And that was after I had a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast. Dinners would be pasta, or rice, or potato...all white...

Since then I have really improved but my carb addiction is not cured and I do believe that it is a strong force as to why I am always binging. I can only reduce little by little in that area though, I want to try to be better at that. I don't think I will ever be a carb free person but I certainly need to open up my options more.

What we feed our children is so important. I don't have kids, but when I was a child, our household was filled with processed sugary foods. It is cheap, it is easy. My mom was a single mom with two children who worked full time. There was no time or money to make fresh, healthy food every day, and I don't think we fully understood the consequences to eating that way at the time.

A co-worker of mine grew up on a farm where fresh vegetables and protein were the base of their meals, sweets were a RARE treat. She really doesn't like all that processed food and doesn't understand why anyone else does. I really wish I was like that but I think I got hooked on the "drug" of processed foods early and so it is a really hard thing to break.

One step at a time, one day at a time. I will beat this!